People resonate with songs for all types of reasons. It can be the lyrics, the rhythm, the band’s culture, the singer’s hair, the guitarist’s HUGE muscles . . . sometimes though, a tune can just remind you of a time and a place and a feeling.
This is one of those tunes for me.
I used to cover it when I was in high school playing little crappy gigs around San Francisco cafes and hole-in-the-wall restaurants with my buddies. More than once it’s made me cry in front of an audience for no reason other than feeling it so hard. Kinda embarrassing looking back.
Well, bite me, I’m a cry baby. 😂
It’s weird, it’s just one of those songs that jumped into my bones and didn’t leave my headphones for a few days even when the rest of the band’s discography didn’t make it to heavy rotation. I even saw From Indian Lakes up in Sonoma, California around 2011. It was a fine show, but the funny thing is, I really just like that one song and furthermore, it’s really just that last line that gets me, even though I’m pretty sure I’m missing the actual intent.
“If you won’t wake up, I don’t want to wake up.”
🚨OKAY…HERE COMES MY REGULARLY SCHEDULED SHORT SAPPY RANT 🚨
For the longest time, I had no intention of starting a career or bettering my physical or mental health, all because I felt like time and space should stop out of respect for my family tragedies. I started to experience how selfish grief can feel sometimes and how easy it is to beat yourself up for taking the time you need. I would get so upset trying to balance letting myself feel and not falling into a hole.
In a strange way, that lyric serves as an automatic reminder for me that everybody goes through the same deal in some capacity or another. I needed somebody to give me permission to complain and hearing someone yell about it was so comforting.
My personal takeaway (regardless of actual meaning) was that trying to turn pain into motivation is a big part in surviving and everybody has to do it. That was huge for me in my teenage years. Sometimes, I think I was just trying to pull motivation out of anything and everything, but I’m glad I did.
Aside from making me cry like I just took a metal scooter to the shin, “Your Son” brings me back to a different time. I was discovering my musical self and exploring my hometown by myself. It reminds me of coming into my own. Learning how to navigate my BIG feelings and finding “my people.”
I hope that our tunes will hold an equally special place in some poor young souls’ heads one day and remind them they’re not alone.
That’s it for now. Please, anybody reading this, drop a tune that shifted your perspective in the comments. I’d love to hear them.